Story: Chapter 3: The End

This time of year....
Is painful for me and those with a long distance relationship
I'm sure that there are those people
Who wish to have their special someone close to them
Right now....

Because after all,
It is Saint Valentine's Day
The day of love,
The day where couples are together....
And the day where even the cruelest of people,
Can have a change of heart

I really am selfish
Yes, indeed...
Because I wanted you to be here
Be here with me
But I am most of all "mean"
For there also might be another reason for me
Wanting you to be with me....
It may be because
I wanted to "show you off" in front of my friends... Yes, I have friends
Eight to be exact.... No more ,no less

Show you, who can brighten up a person's day
In your own way, I suppose...
And even brag about you
But it really does prove that I am "tainted"
Tainted... it sounds like it matches me perfectly

Did you know,
That before you started dating me,
I was "soulless"?
There might not be such a thing as this,
But I am four-faced....
I am different in front of my family, friends, classmates,
And you...
"How is that possible?" I don't know...

Remember that boy I was talking about?
He is in the same class with me,
All six of them
How am I suppose to concentrate for school now?
Rephrasing that,
How am I suppose to think of you, so that I can concentrate for school?

A month has passed,
It is now March, the month of luck
So far, I don't feel very lucky....
I don't think you'll feel lucky either...
Because something terrible might occur

This decision I'm making,
I don't know if it'll become the worst mistake of my life,
Or
The best decision of my life...

Three months have passed,
Meaning it's now June, the month of an ending...
I've grown out of stress now that you've encouraged me
Each step and every day,
But my decision has been made...

"I'm going to break up with you..."
But I feel as if I'm going to regret this...
Regret this "choice" for all of eternity...

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I have broken up with you,
Tears of sorrow are overflowing from my eyes
I'm sure that's a message from my heart,
Deep down...
Saying, "Why? I was truly happy when he was with me... why?"
I feel like I've betrayed you...
Hurt you...
As if a thousand swords throttled you,
All aiming at your heart...
I'm sure that you're crying too...

The beginning of summer has started,
I've been listening to this song...
A song that relates to us

As the lyrics go:
"How is it over there?
Surely, It's a place where I don't know
Give me a word or two so,
I'll know you are doing well...
Opening the door and heading towards you,
But I cannot do anything...
So I hope that at least this song and prayer
Reaches you deep inside you're heart

Not one cloud in the clear, blue sky
Not one method to hide my tear is given
The day to end has come
Now I cannot say anything to you
Ordinary day, yes it was
But then you colored my black and white life to red...
It was such a small graceful love...
Yes, it was small graceful love

So now....

If I can believe that someday,
We can meet again
That will be my strength...
We'll spend the days like it was before...
Till then I'll sing this song for you...

If the door of your heart closes,
We'd be apart forever...
I cannot bear
You'll never know my feelings...
You'll be from a dark cloud to the rain

Ordinary day, yes it was
But then you colored my black and white life to red
It was such a small graceful love...
Yes, it was a small graceful love

Farewell..."

To Be Continued...
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a/n: Hi, again! ^^ I hope that you've enjoyed my new chapter! For your information, the lyrics are indeed from a song! There will also be more chapters...! ^^ I don't know how many chapters there are for this story... Because apparently, I just write the story and is very, very bad at planning... ^^' So see you in the next chapter!

Story: Chapter 2: What Happened in the Middle of it All...

We have such a graceful love...
With so much to say
I wanted to know about you more,
But Christmas ended in a sorrowful way
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Two months have passed,
Still only knowing each others names and faces
I want to know more about you,
I really did...

But here's the problem,
My weak self has fallen in love
Once again...

I have fallen in love with the boy whom I've met in Elementary
I didn't even talk to him
Because I was shy even back then...
He was a kind looking boy who reminds me of you
I must be hallucinating from missing you so
Because he looks like you, smiles like you, and is nice
Like you...

This isn't happening,
This can't be
I just can't replace you for someone who reminds me of you
I can't betray you...
I can't replace you...

A week has passed,
I'm still keeping in touch with you
Trying to erase the thoughts of the boy that reminds me of you
Trying to make myself stronger
Make my heart stronger

Why aren't you here
Instead of being over there?
Where I can just keep you all to my self,
So that I don't have to be so weak...

I really am selfish aren't I?
Using you to make me feel better about myself...
I'm horrid, ugly, dreadful
And mostly disgusting...

Being two-faced around others isn't so hard
But being in love is

Not only have I already fallen for you once before,
Because I thought that you were one of the people whom I've liked
Temporarily...
But I have fallen for you twice...
And that is while we're dating
Right now,
And will hopefully be together,
Forever until we fade away into the everlasting sky...

I must be exhausted for thinking too deeply
The crisis that I'm in shouldn't be my top priority,
Instead making sure that you still li-- no love me
Should be my top priority

What happens later on will be unknown
And pray that I won't make any regrets later on...
After all, I am just a weak hearted and disgusting person...

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a/n: Okay, I've written the second chapter! Yatta[Yay]! I think that this chapter was pretty short... But... hey! I'm having a minor writer's block right now... My problem is pretty weird, too. I can only seem to write and think of what to put into the chapters while I'm typing them down.... ^^' Well anyways.... Hope you enjoyed the second chapter to "Once, Twice, Too Many..." and have already figured out why this story is titled that way... If you don't I recommend you reading this chapter again... -__-

Story: Chapter 1: What I Couldn't Feel or Say...[Introduction]

Once, Twice, Too Many...
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Summary: This story is about a girl who had multiple minor crushes before, and is very anti-social. Until near the time Winter begins, she is asked out by a boy who she met before during summer vacation. It was a miracle for her to have her first "boyfriend", but she was an immature girl. She carried a long-distance relationship with her new found love. High School was rough for her since she didn't know what to do and what to say. Even though she has a "boyfriend" she was a weak girl, trapped and influenced by Cupid's smallest arrow, being in love temporarily to unknown people. It was hard for her to resist, after all, she was weak hearted. Her "lover" was no where near her, somewhere else...
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The rest of the story will be told in the girl's point of view:

Ugh...
This is...
I can't take all of this pressure...
Can't take all of this so called "love"
It's horrifying, dramatic, and most of all
Disgusting...

Sure I'm currently "dating" someone who I hold deeply in my heart,
But...
It feels like I'm missing something...
More love?

I'm so selfish...
The worst girl ever
I can't even make friends, and judge people after a glance,
No one likes me,
I fall in love easily,
A weak good-for-nothing,
And mostly an idiot...
How is it possible that someone like him like someone revolting like me?
I just don't get it....

Girl's Point of View "talking" to the boy:

A few days have passed,
Talking to you, cherishing you, keeping myself close to you...
"How come it's so hard to love you dearly?"
"Is it because of my shy self?"
"Am I going to degrade myself from you?"
I felt like crying... from all of this tension
Is it really tension at all?
Why are all of these questions coming up as another one goes away?

But...
At least I know one thing,
You'll always be there for me
Won't you?

I've always thought that I would be able to only think of you
But I'm still weak at heart
I'm disgusting, aren't I?
I have a new crush now,
A boy who I've met in Elementary,
Hopefully it's minor...

What will happen next?
Will I become my weak hearted self and do something that I'll regret later?
That must be it....
But I'll be strong and try to keep you close

It's almost Christmas,
What should I say to you on the day to come?
"Merry Christmas"? No, too cliche...
"I wish you a very merry Christmas"? Not so much a good idea...
"I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and I love you"? No... Definitely not...! Too embarrassing...
It's just so hard to think of what to say...
I couldn't bring myself to say it,
"I love you" was what I couldn't bring myself to say...

Christmas arrived...
I haven't got a clue of what to say to you...
All I could do was just say "hi"
But I know it's not enough for you,
You want to hear more from me,
Feel more love from me...
I shattered in fear when I had the chance to speak to you
Frightened... no it was more like love shy,
"Merry Christmas to you! ^^"
Was all I aimed you...
Waiting for your response in a nerve wrecking way...
You aimed me back saying,
"Merry Christmas to you, too sweetie! ^^ *hugs*"
I wasn't shocked nor surprised,
You were too nice for your own good...
You never asked for anything more in return when talking to me,
Never did...
I just... I'm just.... a spoiled good-for-nothing...

To Be Continued...
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a/n: Well that's about it for this first chapter! ^^ Hope you[the reader] enjoyed this! And if you want to know the girl's name or any other character's name that appears in the story, that's not possible! ^^ This story is for those who can relate to it, just basically love romance, or for those creative people who like to think up of names! PLEASE DO NOT steal from me because this is all of my material. I thought up of this story[plot, story line, whatever :P] and title. It is meant for me to express things or type down stories that I've made up but is too lazy to draw it in manga form...!