Story: Chapter 4: I liked you, I loved you, I broke your heart....

...But I still love you.

"What's wrong with me around this time of year?"
I thought that everything stopped years ago...
But then it happened again...

I just can't stop falling in love with you...
"Am I being selfish?"
And guess what?
It's winter again,
The time of year where lovers cuddle up...
Being warm and cheerful in their own
Care-free way
Spending as much time as they can

Sigh...
It pains me to say this
Because I know I'm being selfish...
But,
"I love you and I want you to be back with me"....

Recently you've been talking to me normally
Not as your "girlfriend",
Or as your "friend that is a girl",
But just as a "friend"
I feel practically fine with that
Because if I told you how I feel about you
Then you would just laugh softly
Thinking that it's a joke...
A very insensitive joke...
Maybe it's because you already found a new person to love
A new person who is now your "Number One"
She was just one of your friends,
And now I see it as if it was a way of telling me,
"Let him go... you'll never be able to get him back"...

I don't mind that fact,
I really don't...
It's just that... I know that you'll break up with her soon
Because of OUR long-distance relationship...

It's almost Christmas, again
I've been wondering about the many things that have happened in the past years,
And about us...
I've lost the feelings of sorrow day by day after breaking up with you
But it's all in my head,
Not my heart

I haven't lost the feeling of love towards you....
And I want to see you soon, still...
Before the day I graduate and officially forget about you

It's almost the end of the school year now,
The day when I'm about to graduate is drawing closer
I am still waiting for you...

[To Be Continued...]
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a/n: I know... I know... I'm having a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge delay on this story and my Blogs! TxT Please forgive me! Gomen nasai! But guess what? The next chapter is going to be the final chapter! Yatta! Ohs, and I heard from a friend of mine [who is also a reader of this story] saying that the mood/atmosphere of the story changing. Well guess what? It's supposed to. -w- The atmosphere of the story changes because it's through the mood of the female herself. If you haven't noticed then I don't know what to tell you besides, "I know... I fail at making stories... _v_ Forgive meh!"